Am i loser?

The hardest think in the world : first, let your charming loving your bestfriend, second, leave when you want to stay, and third, release your dream when you really want to get it. Today, i think release my dream is the hardest thing that i must face. I hear my bestfriend has accepted in medical faculty, its make me down, honestly. I'm happy and proud to her. Yes, i love her so much. She get her dream and i'm so proud to her. But the problem is.....its my dream too. I have release my medical faculty first. I guess maybe become a law student is my best way. But, i just sad, dissapoited, and feel nothing. I'm nothing. My father doesn't proud to me, my friends, and even my boyfriend, i think they don't feel proud to me. It's a bad feeeling. Worst. I'm nothing. Nobody want to see me in law faculty. I'm a dreamer. I'm fucking stupid to dreaming about medical faculty. Am i loser? Yes, a loser....