Am i loser?

The hardest think in the world : first, let your charming loving your bestfriend, second, leave when you want to stay, and third, release your dream when you really want to get it. Today, i think release my dream is the hardest thing that i must face. I hear my bestfriend has accepted in medical faculty, its make me down, honestly. I'm happy and proud to her. Yes, i love her so much. She get her dream and i'm so proud to her. But the problem is.....its my dream too. I have release my medical faculty first. I guess maybe become a law student is my best way. But, i just sad, dissapoited, and feel nothing. I'm nothing. My father doesn't proud to me, my friends, and even my boyfriend, i think they don't feel proud to me. It's a bad feeeling. Worst. I'm nothing. Nobody want to see me in law faculty. I'm a dreamer. I'm fucking stupid to dreaming about medical faculty. Am i loser? Yes, a loser....

A hello from me again

Hallo bloggy, i'm so sorry to forget and not post anything in this blog for a long long long time. Oke, you can call a busy girl yesterday. But from today, i promise i'll give you a newest posting as often as i can. 

Hmmm...how are you by the way? How about your school? And how about your university? You get a university you want? I hope yaaa, ok? But me? Ha-ha. I have an unsuccess street for this year i guess. My father ask me to continue my school in medical faculty, i had try my best. I was study every single time, get a course everyday, i even had study before my friends talk about university, before the last exam exactly. but what?  i don't success, guys. It's so funny, its not a kidding. But its so much funny. Hahahaa i laugh when i remember that my efforts was be fail. That i have lost. Sometime i think that i'm a loser. But wait, i have trying. My mother has paid a good teacher privat to teach me. I also have study every night. So, even if i get lost at least i'm not a loser, isn't it? 

Now you can find me in the faculty of law UII. I hope this is the best way that Allah give to me. We can make a dream, try to make it true, but Allah is the one who know what is the best way for us. Right? 

So, hei lawyer. I will catch youuuuu now :))